If you are a detail-oriented Virgo like me, then you might understand how I was able to slip into place of obession as I fussed over every frame of my latest project. It is still a work in progress, but the wonders of video editing allow for endless tweaking.
I was drawn into the art of crafting a project that has become personal. It is an expression of an idea. It is chance to share a journey of story telling. It is a collection of moments that I have to combine with a sense of responsibily to display with care.
I opted to tell the story of two sisters who are losing their memory at a senior living facility. I didn’t expect that to be the main focus of the story but as I spent more time with them I realized it was major element to their lives now. It was something I had to document.
I realize now I was subconsciously drawn to this subject matter due to my own fears. My fear of growing old in a way that seems too quick and wondering what happened to the best years. I fear winding up in a nursing home of some sort and having my own memories slip away. It is something that seems incredibly sad; at the same time, maybe it is just something I don’t understand yet. I guess we all face this at some point to some degree.
I find it interesting that the world of journalism takes me on unexpected journeys. One can’t help being affected by the stories one tells, yet there has to be a balance between the involvement and the detachment – the participant and the observer. The pros figured out how to continue on from one story to another; however, I never want to end up as a photographer who just goes through the motions.