Avoid the Ugly PlaceOctober 10, 2009
Leaves are falling from the trees and the long dreaded Winter isn’t far away. I took a quick afternoon ride over to Skaneateles to drop off some gifts for my photo subjects from the Fall Workshop. On the way back, I picked up a pumpkin at a roadside vendor; I immediately asked myself what the heck happened to Summer.
Central New York winters have been a frequent topic of discussion since I started my grad program back in July. I have been warned to watch out for a change in attitude and mood as I make my way through the program. Second-guessing why I have chosen to put myself through this growing process might lurk around the corner, I am told. Yesterday was one of those days as I struggled setting up my next photo project.
A man running a hospice didn’t want to put his guests in a compromising position. The health department said clinical environments were basically off limits. A monastery refused access while commenting on the fact that Oprah Magazine had just interviewed them.
Somehow I started going to that ugly place – Why am I doing this? Am I strong enough to take on these new skills and improve my career? Will my photography improve? How will I maintain my inspiration and motivation? Not a very good day…..
Today, I reminded myself how lucky I am to be here and to have this chance to become who I want to be. I was given a boost of support by an organization willing to help me show my future work in local galleries and in a possible traveling exhibit. I left that meeting re-charged and eager to produce compeling stories.
The evolution continues…..