Coming off another tough week, I remained lost in my own thoughts. Those thoughts still were about me questioning why am I pursuing this master’s degree. Am I doing it because I have to or if I want to? Filled with questions about how to sort though my work and goals, I went to one of my professors and he said that I need to reconnect with my joy of photography and discover again what started me on this journey. This was great advice from someone I have come to respect. I admire his deep understanding of the evolution and sensitivities of the photo professional and I am impressed with his passion, accessibility, and experience. He stands out. I feel like he wants me to succeed; this is an ingredient that has been missing from my professional life for the past five years. I made the jump to NYC five years ago due to my strong desire to live in the city. And despite me not regretting it (0verall), I realize now that somewhere along the line I forgot to make that “ingredient” a priority with my employment choices.
So I am looking for that joy and I am trying to slow down to really take in this experience. All of this really is a gift to myself to be able to detach from the “real world” and learn all that I can. I am so very very thankful for my partner and friends who are helping make all this happen. I can reconnect with my creative side – something I have longed to do. This creative energy need to be a constant part of my “work” life.
The video camera is now in hand – a device unlocking a new world of exploration. It is indeed still all about story telling and visual communication, yet I have been a bit perplexed with this creative leap. I am perplexed in a positive way as I explore the different rhythms associated with this way of working…….all the while becoming more and more fascinated with the power of the “moving” image. This may be an awkward association, but I have always been intrigued by the motion picture industry (the beauty of movie making)….so, as I “logged and captured” my video footage this week, I felt a small spark…..something inside hinting that I can dream bigger….that there are more possibilities and more adventures to consider.
I hope the doors open………and I can find my way to them.